Skin blurring, Healing Brush blah blah... we create "beauty" but ignore beauty. ~weirdinnocence

Always looking for models. I'm located in northern Colorado but I do travel on occasion. Looking at a trip to:

• Dallas/Austin
• Santa Fe/Albuquerque
• Chicago/Detroit

If you are near one of those and want to work with me, let me know. It could influence my decision.

Fellow deviants, there is a brave and beautiful young woman that needs our help. If you aren't already familiar with her, go to =Vispir's page and look at her work and read her journals. Her own words explain the situation better than I ever could. Bottom line is =Vispir is seriously ill, has no insurance, and requires expensive medical treatment. If her plight isn't enough to touch you, please consider making a donation as a personal favor to me.

Donate to Vispir's chemotherapy fund

Most recent features:

I'm late getting to this thank you: ~xmagdax features my work at News: amazing photography: june.

I've been featured in RevolutionArt Magazine in the "Biohazard Alert!" issue. You can read it online [link] but be forwarned its a huge PDF file and takes awhile to come up. Instead, you can download the zip file version [link] and unzip it for viewing on your own computer. Here's the link to RevolutionArt Magazine itself: [link]

*Halohid features one of my photos here: [link] to accompany a very interesting news article that I recommend to everyone.

=gingado features one of my photos here: [link]

*niwaj does a neat thing with a weekly feature. I'm in the present one: deviantART: niwaj's Journal and News: Featuring watchers and friends

I'm honored to be part of *kazarama's feature: kazarama on deviantART

!!!!!WARNING DANGEROUS CURVES AHEAD!!!!!

I thought I'd give all the voluptuous sassy ladies a shout out this month! rockin photography....kickin curves.....smiles all round!!

Thanks so much to =irinama for featuring some of my work at deviantART: irinama's Journal: WINDOWS AGAIN

Thank you everyone that chooses to feature, favor, and watch my work. Its a great honor and I'm humbled that you choose me amongst the many great artists here on deviantart.

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Hi everyone. I wanted to start out by saying thank you to everyone that has expressed their concern about my depression. To quote myself from an exchange I had with a model friend earlier today: I'm doing better, I'm managing, I'm still not great.

I did try my hand at shooting again last weekend and that was pretty fun despite some of the issues that arise out of depression. I'm planning on continuing to shoot, though at a slower pace. Everything slows down because of the indecisiveness and effort it takes to do even the simplest things.

The model I referenced above and I went on to discuss an idea she'd presented to me just as I was crashing. I'd deliberately delayed talking to her about her idea because at times like these I tend to misunderstand, miscommunicate, and damage relationships. I'm still not fully trusting what I said in the following, but we are up against a time deadline where we need to go ahead and commit to the shoot or let it go for now at least.

Her idea is predicated on mimicking the look of a particular photographer whose work she'd run across and loves. I too like what she showed me, but its in a style outside the scope of what I'm doing these days. So the following is me trying to explain where I'm at with her idea and vision:

As to your idea, I'm ambivalent and conflicted. The work you directed me to is beautiful. I'd not heard of that particular photographer but her work reminds me of one of my favorites and inspirations, Ralph Gibson. There was a time when copping that sort of feel would have been right up my alley. But ultimately, beyond even the clothed/unclothed aspect, that work falls largely into the fashion category... maybe leaning more to editorial fashion. By its very nature, its an outside in process whereas what I do now strives to start on the inside working its way to the surface. It goes towards an issue I run into often with professional models and even experienced amateurs. For them, modeling comes to be about perfecting postures and appearances while for me, I'd prefer an authenticity and sincere expression even at the expense of a rough and awkward appearance.

I suspect from talking to and observing other photographers, that they often have little of an underlying story or motivation to their work. Nor should they because they most often are about pulling off some sort of visual. As you know from our having worked together, I really only have the vaguest of ideas what the resulting photographs might look like. Often, what emerges comes as a complete and total surprise and I'm delighted by that fact.

In musical terms, its the difference between participating in a highly practiced, polished, and well executed piece of classical music and a jazz, jam, or blues session which might be somewhat ragged in comparison but is all about the spontaneous exchange of improvisation over an established chord structure and rhythmic pattern. (Those last two elements themselves often embellished and improvised in the moment.)

So... will I be shooting this idea with this particular model at this particular time? Maybe, maybe not. In editing and writing more for this journal entry, I think maybe I've come up with a way to encapsulate her concept into one of my own. Am I up to working it up right now? I don't know. Hell, I'm more concerned about burning bridges between me and yet another work partner as much as I am about the work itself.